Every day I am reborn. Every night I die.

 I'm crying
Exhaustion is taking me

I'm collapsing
Insides burning hot
Rage
Hurt
Anger

When I think I've gotten past it
My mind blind sides me

I want to tear them free
All those painful parts of me

Black, bloody throbbing pieces of me
Darkening my soul

It's a never ending battle
Every day I am reborn and
Every night I die

In my time of dying
I close my eyes
Beckoning the reaper to take me
 He never does..

As the sunlight pours in
I know yet again I must begin a new day
 The wounds have scabbed over
 I pull myself through

The night tears them open, exposed and bleeding again
I lay open,powerless
until the sun comes again

Frigid

The happiness fading within me
The darkness is winning again

I'm tired of being strong
It's cold here and I'm alone

I can feel my hands shaking
My fingers, cold as ice

All the warmth has left me
Shivering, I'm trying to hold on

I struggle to breath
I struggle to sleep
I struggle to be

Your words, a whisper
Your touch, miles away

What's keeping me here?
What am I fighting for?

This life has left me damaged and bruised
Slowly I'm drowning...

The worst parts of yourself

Thrashing in the night
Dreaming gives you a fright

You're trying to escape the stress
You feel like dying
You think about it often

You think about car crashes
Jumping off bridges
Sleeping forever in a sea of diamonds

You close your eyes hoping tomorrow will be different
You close your eyes hoping the pain will subside, the physical and the emotional

You feel everything, like a curse
Overwhelming your senses

You feel broken
You feel worthless
You want to drown in your own blood

You yell at your reflection
These are the worse parts of you
They are tearing at the seams

Dripping, leaking through your skin
No one sees it but you know it's there

We all have the worst parts that we hide

My Crimson Knight....

In his heart I hear the music that never stops
In his soul I see the dreams that never die

He holds my hand as the demons consume me
The battle of light and dark
The war of hurt and love

I cling to him because he is strong when I can not be
He clings to me because I am soothing when he is not calm

Puzzle pieces placed together perfectly

I dream in blood
he wipes it away
I hide in darkness
he brings the light


My crimson knight
Dedicated and loyal

I thank you...