Letdown

 Having a bad day.

I wish I could make you understand

I'm picking myself apart until there is nothing

That's what I've become nothing

I've reached the top and I've fallen to the bottom so many times.

Aware of my insignificance 

I'm looking in the mirror

Asking Why am I so broken?

What happened to me?

Why can't I be happy?

I see my red, swollen eyes

My dry, cracked lips

My mind is racing, but I can't do anything

I'm in pain, I'm crying

I am not strong

I am not steady

Why can't I be fixed?

Why am I so damaged?

Why am I such a disappointment?

When will you be proud of me?

When will you love me?

I still feel

I'm bursting at the seams

it's overwhelming somedays

Angry

Pain

Sadness

Disappointment

Unworthy

Stuck

I live inside this nightmare...