This is life, one punishing day at a time

I'm holding my demons in
They are scratching to get out

I'm holding my tongue
Even though I want to scream

I want to be normal but I'm past that point now
I'm to old to begin again

I'm losing interest
Let me sleep for years

Let the tears stain

And in my head they say
"Cry tonight, no one fucking cares."

And in my head I believe these words
and close my eyes because sleeping gives me more comfort these days
then being awake ever did

I'm calloused
I'm bruised
I'm broken

The world is heartless
No one cares about your pain
No one cares if you are bleeding

This is life, one punishing day at a time

My Shattered Existence

I'm holding my head high
I'm barely looking at the ground
But now here I am falling again

Physically in pain
Emotionally a wreck
Mentally lost and unstable

It follows me like a cloud
most days the sun peaks through
but today it's pouring

I can't explain
I can't make you understand

Every time my heart breaks
My nerves snap
My bones crack
My insides crumble

I heal
And it all starts again

The tears creep to the corners of my eyes
I blink them away but they keep coming

I'm sorry

My voice catches its hard to speak
It's hard to find words to describe how I feel

I'm frustrated
I explode
I deflate

All emotions rushing

In the end no one sees
No one cares
And I'm stuck in this shattered existence