I'm losing my head again
I fill that familiar pain
It starts as a headache
It moves down my spine
Lower back, pain
Attaches itself to every joint
Every bone
Like a venom
Like a parasite
It's tearing me apart
Every nerve stinging
No one sees
No one knows
Internally I am falling apart
No tears are forming now
I have nothing left
I am strong
I try to hang on
My past creeps in
Bringing me mistakes I regret
Bringing me words of failure
I feel like I am nothing
I feel like I have let everyone down
I feel useless
I feel like I am not good enough
I struggle to smile
I struggle to sleep
I struggle to live
I fight
Scars are on my heart
You can't see them but they sting me every day
Reminding me of where I've been
Reminding of things I've done
Reminding me of pain
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