Close your eyes, take a breath

Close your eyes
What have you been doing this whole time

Your getting older,
your knees crack,
your back hurts and sometimes you squint to see small letters

You think about how if you were someone else, where you could be now
You think about if you took a left instead of a right
If you chose this boyfriend, instead of that boyfriend
If you chose to work yourself to the bone

If I could just get up and do that work out
If I could just get up and go to work
If I could just get up and go to the store

Sometimes you wake up and you can't do these things
You are smothered
Your brain attacking the core of your emotions

You can't cry out, you can't express what it feels like
It's like you want to cry and sleep at the same time

Close your eyes, take a breath
This will pass
I know this because the you is me here

I know because I am still here
Open your eyes
A new days is beginning and you can make it through
I believe in you