Wallflower

I feel all this shit is rushing in my head

You...a failure
You...weak
You...stupid
You....a child
You...a joke

Feeling awake, sleep once a luxury now a nightmare
It's unattainable at the moment
Like a star you reach for it but it is to far away

In this moment you are truly alone
That late night depression
It eats you alive

You call for help but no one is there
You take the pain, you suffer through it
Those tears sting your eyes

All you can do is let them fall

I Got You

I know I'm a mess
I know I over react
I know my thoughts race

I know I'm hard to keep up with sometimes
but I know for certain I will always care about you

I don't give up
I've never been the one to end things
I don't believe it's in me to just leave people behind

No matter where life takes me
I'll keep my heart open
If you need me I am there
Forever and always

Sometimes you meet people in your life that you would just do anything for
I'd bend until I break for you
I'd hurt for you
I'd bleed for you
I'd die for you
Everything I could ever give is yours to take

I've lived long enough to know
Treasure everything you get in your life
Even if those things that are not permanent in your life

You only live once
Take chances
Laugh as much as possible
And have fun

No expectations

Having trouble sleeping

My brain in a constant state of racing

Thinking about you, thinking about me


Thinking about my mistakes
Thinking about my disappointment

Feelings are useless here
Go in blind
Turn your heart to ice
The only way you will survive

You are the owner of nothing not even your own heart
You push through
Take the pain, it will be worth it

Nothing is perfect
Nothing lasts forever