I overthink way too much
I can’t overlook things
I can’t explain how this feels
And all I keep going back to is that I mean nothing
I fear rejection
I fear not being good enough
I fear that in the end you will hate me
You will throw me away like everyone else
And I just don’t understand why I can’t just go with the
flow
Why can’t I just be happy?
I sabotage myself
All my plans turn to dust
I wish I could tell you how it feels
I wish I could stop the inevitable
But I am afraid I’ll mess this up again
Because it’s never been perfect
And it always breaks
I am afraid the problem has always been me
I am afraid I am not capable of love
