What it's like living in my head...

I overthink way too much

I can’t overlook things

I can’t explain how this feels

And all I keep going back to is that I mean nothing

I fear rejection

I fear not being good enough

I fear that in the end you will hate me

You will throw me away like everyone else

And I just don’t understand why I can’t just go with the flow

Why can’t I just be happy?

I sabotage myself

All my plans turn to dust

I wish I could tell you how it feels

I wish I could stop the inevitable

But I am afraid I’ll mess this up again

Because it’s never been perfect

And it always breaks

I am afraid the problem has always been me

I am afraid I am not capable of love