Battle of Lies and Truths

I can’t let my guard down

I can’t trust

I’ve become broken

I want to believe every word you say

But this wall I’ve build keeps getting in the way

I am damaged in more ways than one

I’ve been lied to so much

It’s hard to believe this now

It’s sad when the only one you can trust is yourself

It used to be so easy to let people in

But now these doors are locked

I can’t see your demons all I see is the good in you

So when you use me, it hurts

So when you lie, it makes me die inside

So when you say you love me…I doubt it

I rip myself apart inside

I tell myself every word you say is a lie

But that spark of hope damns me

It tells me to believe

Is this chance worth the pain

I hope so…