I've never been the pretty girl

Have you ever felt pretty?

Could you describe the feeling to me?

I've never been the pretty girl

I've never been the anything-girl

I close my eyes and almost feel like I could disappear 

As if I was never here

There is a hole deep inside me that never goes away 

 Slowly I feel it swallowing me 

I look in the mirror and I see nothing worth saving

Wondering if I should have died

If I am here by mistake

Life goes on and people change

One by one leaving me 

So terribly lonely

I'll never get used to this stinging feeling

That pain when you hold your heart in your hands as it breaks 

I keep this smile on, but it hurts

It's hides the ugly truth, the damage beneath

I've never been the pretty girl