I'm not as brave as you think I am
It took me so long to get here
I still fall apart
I still break
Unbearably, painfully, alone in the dark
Scars cover me, seen and unseen
I pull the scabs, there uncomfortable on my skin
I reopen these wounds
Reliving the nightmares over and over
Like a walking disaster
I continue walking in the dark
Waiting to disappear
Waiting to drown in this despair
You didn't see the night I lost my heart
The night I watch the blood pour from my hands
It looked black as I sat in the garage contemplating life
No one there
No one cared
I walked through the fire alone
Maybe that's where it fell, burned to dust
Maybe I lost it when I felt the hopelessness seep in
When you swore I was a waste of air
Maybe my heart left filling the void with worthlessness
Maybe it never was lost, maybe it's just broken
Tender
Hurts to the touch
An open wound, dying, rotting
Waiting to be ripped out again
You didn't see the night I lost my heart
