Empty Worth

Did you get what you wanted?

That cold shoulder

That definite slam of the door

You didn't even try to save it

You didn't even try to mask the truth

I gave and gave like I always do

I made time for you

Burned out, drowning, but I made time for you

Yet here I am with this emptiness in my hands

Nothing there and yet it's clearly heavy, breaking the skin

Another scar upon my heart 

Another end of a chapter

You made your bed, now you have to lay in it

Although now I'm the one reflecting

Blaming myself, questioning my worth

Darkness envelopes me

Breaking

Bleeding

Making me stronger

Making me better

I thrive in the pain

You play the victim 

Because I've weathered far worse than you

So This is Living

I'm living

Even if it hurts me

I'm living

Even if it's cold and breaks my skin

I'm living

Even if  I tell you I'll never do it again

I'm living

Even if it tastes like poison 

I'm living 

Even if my heart is stone

I'm living 

Even if I'm all alone

I'm living 

Even if I'm already dead

Alone in the Dark

 I'm not as brave as you think I am 

It took me so long to get here

I still fall apart

I still break

Unbearably, painfully, alone in the dark

Scars cover me, seen and unseen

I pull the scabs, there uncomfortable on my skin

I reopen these wounds

Reliving the nightmares over and over

Like a walking disaster

I continue walking in the dark

Waiting to disappear 

Waiting to drown in this despair

 

You Didn't See the Night I Lost my Heart

 You didn't see the night I lost my heart

The night I watch the blood pour from my hands

It looked black as I sat in the garage contemplating life

No one there

No one cared

I walked through the fire alone

Maybe that's where it fell, burned to dust

Maybe I lost it when I felt the hopelessness seep in

When you swore I was a waste of air

Maybe my heart left filling the void with worthlessness

Maybe it never was lost, maybe it's just broken

Tender

Hurts to the touch

An open wound, dying, rotting

Waiting to be ripped out again

You didn't see the night I lost my heart