With highs come lows

 I can not complain

I am accepting this hand I am dealt

Even though I have this deep-rooted sadness in my chest

It's been years, but I am still fighting with these demons

I still have this hole in my heart

I forget it every once in a while

I live in denial

I deny the pain

I hear people say it's not that bad

I hear people say suck it up

I hear people say it's just a phase

A phase, it's been a lifetime

They don't understand

They don't listen

They don't see

how hard it is to speak

how hard it is to breath

how hard it is to stay put together 

With the highs come the lows

Dancing and then misery

I am my own worst enemy

Life goes on

When will this end