I've been feeling empty like the lining of my wallet...

 I made it through the rain

I made it through the pain

But it's back again

It's lingering in my chest

I thought the clouds had gone

But the darkness is still clogging my veins

When I am alone

It eats away at me

When I am alone

It tears me apart

I say I am ok

I push through

But it's getting harder 

Each time I'm less myself 

I'm more tired

I'm more alone

I'm forgotten

I'm struggling

I'm suffering

Choking

I'm stumbling

Pretending I'm ok

It never matters anyway

The world turns, nothing stops 

Let the tears come it's not like you will notice anyway

What the fucks the point

I can never stop

I can never rest

I can not break this cycle

Letdown

 Having a bad day.

I wish I could make you understand

I'm picking myself apart until there is nothing

That's what I've become nothing

I've reached the top and I've fallen to the bottom so many times.

Aware of my insignificance 

I'm looking in the mirror

Asking Why am I so broken?

What happened to me?

Why can't I be happy?

I see my red, swollen eyes

My dry, cracked lips

My mind is racing, but I can't do anything

I'm in pain, I'm crying

I am not strong

I am not steady

Why can't I be fixed?

Why am I so damaged?

Why am I such a disappointment?

When will you be proud of me?

When will you love me?

I still feel

I'm bursting at the seams

it's overwhelming somedays

Angry

Pain

Sadness

Disappointment

Unworthy

Stuck

I live inside this nightmare...